I’ve always wanted to study, there has never been a doubt about it. Other than the simple fact that you need to have tertiary education under your belt in a country where joblessness is a stark reality, but to further myself, to push past a so so matric certificate(where I did the bare minimum of studying), to become someone I dreamed of becoming.
But life happens and ten years later I have have only just had a student loan approved and registered to study. Even a mere two weeks ago I had not planned to start until the beginning of next year, I was being complacent(as I have been in the last ten years). But someone showed me a door and in a moment of clarity I did something.
All choices have pros and cons, and this particular choice, now has me in R20200.00 debt. I have never experienced debt before, at least not where you can be listed on ITC or Experian. The credit bureau didn’t know I existed…well…until now. And this has me a little preturbed as my paranoid mind chooses to remind me often that if I default on even one payment, my non existant credit score will be tarnished forever(Melodramatic arent I?)
The only comfort I am gaining from this is the fact that the loan is for further education, as opposed to a pair of Jimmy Choo’s(I dont think I could live with the guilt – Seriously).
I’d also to like to mention that I am not studying for my “dream” job. I am studying bookkeeping(and BTW anyone that enthusiastically studies numbers is crazy) as a means to an end. I need to double my paygrade, make sure it is in an unsaturated field and have decent hours.
Once I have this under my belt, my education is far from finished as then I am going to pursue my “dream” job. Right now that job/career is to be a psychologist(and I hear screams of laughter from all my friends who know Im “special”). But that is now, perhaps in two years I want to be a yoga instructor, or a travel writer, or a politician(Heaven forbid!). Really all I do know for sure is that I would like to study a ridiculously long time obtain a Doctorate(Yes….thats Dr Romaigne to you!)
I have realized that you are never too old to study(or get a student loan) and never too old to say this is it, this is what I want be. I believe we can satisfy all aspects of our wants and needs, in due course, of course.
Dont wait until tomorrow to study or begin becoming what you want to become.
Be who you are, work hard at it, change your mind often and do it 100%.
Anything less and you are selling yourself short.