So I had the full intent on studying this morning…better yet…writing a post about the impending Zombie Apocalypse. But as I sit here staring at the computer screen I realize that I might have to get serious, and here I am almost choking on the gum in my mouth but yes, I have to be serious once in a while as much as it pains me to do so.
We all have to make choices as we grow up, as we take part in this life. Choices are inevitable, always there and always coming and going.
Many of those choices are second nature, they form a part of our daily routines and habits…like brushing our teeth(granted some don’t even make that choice…yuck!) and which way to work and choosing how much sugar we want in our coffee. Options are endless, it’s amazing what our brains are able to acheive in the space of a day. Give it credit…give yourself credit…you are a miracle of nature, with a mind and the gift of free will.
The heavens know that I have made alot of choices, some good and some bad, some out of necessity. Hell, I have even chosen not to make a choice(a paradox if you will). I am a firm believer in No Regrets and I believe the decisions we make are the right ones for us at the time. I think we go too long in our lives trying to re write our memories, living in a fantasy world that does not exist. Nothing can be done, it is just spending the sweetness of now on a yesterday you can never change.
The mind is a powerful thing…look at the placebo effect…it is real that you can affect your body…that you can heal yourself to a certain extent using only thoughts…we don’t come near to using the full potential of our brains…imagine what we could acheive if we did?
Most of us, including me, are just sometimes too pre occupied with those darned memories…those choices…and then the bitter pills of resentment, anger, loss, pain, shame and lost loves are swallowed up and eat us from the inside out.
Yes, a lot of those memories are great…but those memories tend to leave us yearning for the past yet again.
There is nothing you can do about the choice you have already made. What is done is done and it is what it is. No second takes…no second chances…one life and a series of choices and events that shape who you are.
They may help shape who you are, BUT THEY DO NOT DEFINE YOU. You ARE NOT YOUR CHOICES. You are a devine creature, here to experience and use every day as an opportunity to learn, grow and become a better you.
It’s not what you do when you fall, it’s what you do when you get up.
With that being said I by no means think that we have to wear a hardened exoskeleton…I think it is okay to sometimes have your heart break a little…to feel some regret…to feel some pain. To look back and sometimes wonder what might have been.
Not all the time…not too little either. We remember so that we can make informed choices. Our memories are an encyclopedia of do’s and dont’s.
Today I’m not particularly in the mood to get up. But that is today.
And we have tomorrow and the next and the next.
And I’m not nearly done.
Not at all.